Boring.

sian, next two terms idk where to concentrate my energies on. see first, currently i have a target. guys relax, still got like 40 percent of june holidays, chill.


Hasta La Vista?

Oh God.

finally back from ubin, and i can only say tat it is MUCH MUCH tougher than any camps for 14 year old teenager boys. nt going to elaborate much, cos most of my viewers dont know a shit about em. really really bonded wif my batch :P, though it is uber small. vital stats, one day abt pump 200, but it is nt about the pumping, its about...idk how to explain to non scouts.anyway, though we WERE screwed, our patrol had the most outstanding camper of ubin training camp 2009, with sec one thaddus, sec 2 me, and sec 3 julian anthony. for my batch, the most outstanding camper is me, keefe and ben ted.performance wise, im like 5th. cos of determination and shit, u usually get wat u want. fk, nearly every morn the pt run like 2 to 3 km, plus is venture speed..

Nevertheless, i found the impt. part of my lives now, and i made it clear in this post 2dae.

maybe tmrrw i go LAN, but now i need to REST.

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Ubin.

dToday, pigeon didnt come down overall. only xueyan came down, so didnt do much srsly..... ubin is going to be shit, why didnt i go to ubin last yr? FK terence lee PL two more days to ubin still playing com, pangseh me fk. everyone pissed, but who cares, the best patrol totem is nearly impossible for pigeon to get now. UNLESS tmrw we camp at school carry out emergency operation, which is quite rubbish. frick, ubin hike, inspection, gadgets, skit, VOJ, challenge valley, all in front of us. 4 days of true shit, fk fk fk fk. nvm, i adore doing things that many ppl detest, like **outs.

Mao, ZJ, lead us.

Last civilised post before i become a primitive comrade in ubin, much like robinson crusoe, juz laced with shit and exhaustion.

Hopefully the ventures wont feel particularly sadist during the camp.

Indifference.

Ubin is near, two days and all hell breaks loose. the holidays are fun, with six days a week at school from 10 to 5. fun. looking at all minorities slacking, i cant help but feel fked up. terence didnt guide us a shit, and im left alone to settle ubin prep. frick, all the other camps i saw were juz so fun, like a field trip in school. gadgets? first aid? inspection? morse code? semaphore? basha? firelighting? survival skills? skit?....... none of em need to worry bout this. nvm, to hell with the pain, no guts, no glory. those who lead a carefree life void of worries and stress are not going to earn the spoils of victory. screw the pain and let me indulge in it.

"If it feels good, you aint doing it right. It's supposed to hurt like hell."

"He who suffers remembers."

P.S. I got these awesome quotes from the book 'Ultra Marathon Man'. Its a great book.

Delayed Onset Muscle Soreness

my triceps are dam sore now. generally the whole body is exhausted. to re enact a stimulation, try doing 250 push ups straight than run 8 rounds round the track. sian, training is tough. no doubt. why did i choose this lifestyle?? i can juz join ANY other cca and slack. nvm.....lets see who gets the most out of their cca after 4 yrs. i know its going to be worth it, all these sacrifices i make that the majority does not.

nowadays, idk y but the original friends i had during sec 1 are drifting away....plus now no one cares about each other much now. nvm, friendship other than through scouts is not on my mind now, especially in 2-1.

Happy New Year.

Disclaimer.

the post below is juz a draft of a my philosophy XD. half of it is crap, half of it aint a joke.

Crushed.

Life is filled with ironies. Filled with ecstasy, pain and a myriad of other emotions. O' we try to be what we wish to be....but we juz cant seem to break through and stand out. change is among us...but have i changed for the better or for the worst? think bout it....how many times temporary confidence or happiness crumbles into shit when u realised u achieved nothing special. and it hurts more when u have the potential to get a life, but invisible temptations lurk around trying to lead me astray. aye, how many times must i put up wif ppl who dont dig me, who i dont like. i dont hate anyone, but ppl hate me. fuck, how many times must i endure the things tat i dont like, when ppl dont give a shit.

im gonna change. hell yeah.